basically what the title says lol.
i do admit it definitely wasn't my best game and my stats weren't ideal (8k dmg, lowest of all DPS though only by 500), but i never went negative K/D, gave the game "my all," communicated through in-game comms, and it wasn't like i was getting low(er) kills/dmg on purpose. plus, it was a *very* close game and we were in the lead for quite a bit; we only lost because i think by then my other DPS was very tilted and i was doubting myself... thereby not doing the greatest during Overtime.
another thing to note is that our DPS Moira essentially made up for my lower damage (with the tradeoff of her having the lowest heals in the thousands while all other supports' were in the ten thousands)—not using this as some weird sort of "excuse" or way to blame others, but 'twas simply an observation.
to compare, i also had the least deaths of all players (the Lifeweaver and I both had only 4 deaths), which maybe could be a bit of a tradeoff for the low stats? as a support main, i have a "die the least and don't get greedy with kills" mindset, so maybe that's something i have to work on?
i didn't switch off of widowmaker for the majority of the game because *i* personally thought i was doing fairly okay with her—plus, the enemy team didn't dive me at all, which gave me a nice chance to practice sniper gameplay. but one teammate (the other DPS) was yelling at me constantly in text chat to switch off... starting to wonder if i was in the wrong and was too stubborn? i *did* switch off widow in the last minute of the game since i figured that *then* it would be beneficial for our team if i played a character that is better stalling.
anyway, i kinda pride myself on being a non-toxic gamer/teammate, as i'm never one to take any kind of frustration out on others and i always play intense games only when i'm in a good mood. so, it kind of hurt to be told by two of my teammates that it was all my fault and i would be reported.
i'm a bit of a yapper (and perhaps being too sensitive... idk man), but i just thought it'd be nice to share this experience and potentially get input from others'. with all that in mind, i'd love to hear others' thoughts, haha. peace!
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